broken-heart92

It's almost funny how f***ed up my love life is. Not a single relationship lasting past the "honey-moon phase". Not a single relationship lasting long enough for gifts to be given. Not a single relationship lasting long enough for true love. Oh well. I guess that's how life goes, right? I guess I just would have thought that by age 19, between all of my 7 relationships, I would have felt love at least ONCE. Guess I was just, and still am, naive. I am dreading this semester of college. Aural Skills IV and Music Theory IV are so much less than fun. Almost done though. After this semester, assuming I pass, I will be DONE with Aural Skills. That

Once again, I have fallen for a straight guy. Once again, I have broken someone's heart. The lies must stop, and the pretending must stop, before the wake of broken hearts behind me gets worse. So here's to taking a risk, and going out on a limb, when the time comes. Here's to being me. Here's to stopping looking for love. Here's to stopping trying to control love. Here's to love.

If I disappeared off the planet, would anyone care? Would they notice? I feel like I could scream, and no one would hear. I feel like I could cry hysterically, and no one would comfort me. I feel like I could run away, and not be missed. This is the worst feeling.... and I can't seem to shake it off. :